Updates (long and arduous)

It has been a hectic 2 weeks for me, and i had some rather disheartening news about 2 weeks ago. My arch rival and enemy came back, impeccable timing i must say.

I am of course talking about asthma. I grew up with asthma, inhalers and the lot, it was never terrible or at least never got in the way because when i was younger i was never much into sport and fitness. I dare say had i been doing vigorous exercise then who knows what might have happened. Anyhow, after weeks of dealing with a wheezy dry cough (i dismissed it as a dry cough) i had had enough and decided to see the doctor. I was suffering through training, and when i explained this to the doctor he just said, well looks like you have asthma. My heart sank. 320km and asthma are a combination that doesn't sit well together, in fact much to my dismay, it would look like i was actually looking for a death wish.

Anyway, this was it. It would seem running for a wish would be postponed indefinitely or cancelled. I was told to breathe into a spirometer which basically tests your lung capacity etc, you take a deep breath and you blow into it as hard as you can, (quite similar to VO2 max testing just less sophisticated) generally normal people would have a capacity of between 400-450, asthmatic people below 400 to about 400 and athletes about 680- 750 (with ease).

On my first attempt, wheezing and all i tested to 560. Not bad m doctor said, but he believed i would improve with treatment. I asked him if i could still run, and he said, why not, and said i should continue to run and train and finish my race. Fast forward a week later, treating this annoying wheeze, I felt much better, stronger and less tired, my times have improved, and on my last spirometer test, i blew a healthy 650. I have beaten asthma again, but just in case i have one more piece of equipment to carry with me on my journey. Yep. My inhaler and thank God it comes in purple.

I will keep you guys posted again and just on a side note, all my "LIVE STRONG' gear has arrived. I am working with Kim on the tee shirts and plan to give some away. Stay tuned.

Keep wishing.

A bigger team

When I first started this initiative I didn't expect it to grow like this. This is a perfect example of "planting a seed" now weeks into planning, I have gotten a few more people on board. Reuben from the cat studio
http://www.thecatstudio.com.my is also helping me out somewhat by producing a song for me.

I just want to say how much this means to me and right now i want to name some of the core people helping me.

Kimberly Low from www.kimberlycun.com
Reuben Ch'ng
John Hans Oei
John Son Oei (http://epic.my)
Jason Lee

Many thanks, I could not have gotten here without you guys

Also a special shout out to www.livestrong.org, spoke to some one there and i am completely inspired. I am being sent a few shirts from them too.

Much love. And keep wishing for a better tomorrow.

An EPIC show of support

Since the inception of Running for a wish, I have always thought of it as being a one event thing or maybe just a huge colossal show of affection and insanity, i realised that i can now do quarterly events and run for a wish whenever and raise awareness and funds. The amazing thing is a group called EPIC is now supporting me. Please go to http://epic.my and see what they are about and maybe you too can 'enlist to join the Epic Army"

Thank you guys for your support!

From the heart

Now that  I run every night, I go to bed exhausted but happy, well relatively happy. While it still feels like I have a huge hole in my heart, it gets better, but wait, there's more I feel extremely helpless at times and know that while this run is a drastic attempt to do something, and it may be over the top, i can't help but feel that I have to do it, if not for anything but myself. And again, I know some people think i am craving attention, the truth is i'm not, id rather the majority of people who actually know me, know nothing about it, and in weeks to come when i post videos (we are making a documentary!) you'll see what i mean.

Anyway, i had this weighing on my thoughts, and i'd like to share it candidly with all of you.

I feel completely disappointed in my poor sense of judgment and total lack of care when handling another person's feelings, and i am not going to blame anyone but myself. If only everything could be solved with the snap of your fingers, and then *boom* everything just goes back to when you were just about to make that mistake, tell that lie or walk into oncoming traffic. The truth is, if i could illustrate what running for a wish is about, it would be making this:

into this.

You see after what i've been through, a broken heart doesn't seem that bad at least you can pick up the pieces and put it back again. A hole well if you've lost that piece, you'd need help to fix it really. 

What so bad about a hole in the heart (in a literary sense of course) It's the emptiness and the helpless sense of despair and that feeling that there is a void that CANNOT  be filled that is most difficult to come to terms with. 

Which brings us back to the run, and he purpose of this site. As much as i am lumping everything together, by also running for charity, i am really a selfish bastard who is running for some form of redemption and forgiveness, to an extent also to try to reestablish the fact that, I am still that guy who will love this girl as deeply a I did. And this is it. If i don't do something now, something big, and something meaningful for her, for me, for love, then damn me to my own living hell, cause living with such emptiness and despair requires tenacity that i certain do not have, or at least lost along the way. To all the people reading this site, you have no idea how much your support means to me, and I know somewhere out there, a few of you may feel the same (God forbid) or at least understand how absolutely awful i feel. And to everyone who might admire what I am doing, please remember, I'm doing this for a selfish reason, so when i say i'm humbled by your support, i just want to tell you, i truly am. Sincerely, honestly and from the bottom of my heart that has a huge hole in it. Again, thank you.

Micro update

I've spoken only to a few very very close friends and a few bloggers i know about this project, and i am overwhelmed by the out pour of support for my insanity.

I've spoken to Kimberly of Kimberlycun.com and she has kindly agreed to lend me some support. (thanks kim!)

Again, thank you!

Kilometers covered, this week so far: 30

A life of its own II

First of all, this thing is ON guys, it is unbelievable how many people here are helping me run for my wish. It really moves me!

I would like to thank, my best friends, (you guys know who you are) as well as some bloggers whom I have spoken to, namely Kimberlycun of www.kimberlycun.com (its an evil site for runners who are trying to keep their weight down LOL!) as well as a few personal friends who have come forward full of support and even offering to be involved and help me along the way, believe me guys, thank you, this means the absolute world to me.

I am now getting my tee-shirts made, yes, those who want tee shirts let me know, of course you can buy them from me, i dont know the exact price yet because we haven't worked out costs.

Would also like to thank JH for helping me with my training, and keeping me injury free.

My next post will see me deciding on the shoes that i will be using to run, obviously with distances so long, i'd need shoes with good cushioning and also shoes that are customizable.

Finally Kimberly has also given me so many suggestions on how to make this website better, and i will be heeding her advice, and she even came up with an amazing suggestion of having a GPS tracker and heart rate monitor attached to this site while i run so i can be tracked!

Oh and on top of that, please submit your wishes either via email or via comments.
There is so much to do and so much to prepare for.

Once again, thank you. Thank you, thank you!

the wish list

What do you guys wish for? Please let me know, so that i can also run for you, i'd like to know i guess running for my own hopes and wishes can seem pretty selfish, but anyway, i'm curious. let me know so that i can be even more motivated to finish this.

Tee-shirt decal

Its simple but i think it'll work, and if you wanna just show your support by putting this on your site. then please go ahead :) I'll need ALL the help i can get.

Till then guys, keep wishing and keep hoping.

A Life of its own

I will be trying to get as much online support as i can as apart from a few very close friends and relatives, I would like to remain anonymous.

The run will be self funded. And not  single cent from the money i will raise will go to me. 100% to charity.

Since mentioning this to a few friends, i have had a mixed reaction, split right down the middle between those who gave me full support and believed that this cathartic run would be good for the soul and the fact and then there are the rest, who a vehemently against it but nonetheless "understand"

This run has taken a life of its own, i get ideas on safety, and how to train and what i need to do daily, i guess when you truly want to 'find' yourself and truly want to make things right, good things start to happen.

So here it is guys, again, thank you for your support.

The Run

I am planning to run.

"Cross Country" or rather, "Cross High-Way" It will be what we call a "super ultra" Marathon.
A marathon is 42.195km
An ultra marathon on average anywhere from 50 - 100km.

This Marathon is... 350Kilometers.

Kuala Lumpur to Singapore.

I will be putting up Paypal account so that i can ask for donations, no not for me, but i thought if i complete this race (which will be videoed and photographed) I will donate the proceeds to the charity of my reader's choice the proceeds will be distributed 50% in Singapore, 50% in Malaysia.

Who Am I?

Hi guys and girls, thank you for dropping by. If you are here, it is likely that you are friend of a friend that has referred you here to give me some moral support and words of encouragement. For that I am eternally grateful and I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart. If however, you happened to stumble on this site by mistake thank you all the same.

For the purposes of privacy, I will not mention my name or anyone involved, apart from that everything you read is true, and has or is happening in my life. Anyway, I am an average Joe. I'm not special nor am I an amazing person, a saint or someone who's perfect. In fact the reason why this site came into existence is because of the  amount of screw ups I have made, especially in the 'love' department. But the story here goes like this, while I may not be #1 on God's list of good people or even on the lists of normal people (in fact i'm pretty sure i have a like to hate ratio of 30%:70% in that order respectively, and im just being conservative.) I don't care, the fact is this:

I have been in love with the same girl for over 14 years. I will do everything I can to try to her to forgive me and to try to get her back. Or at least to stop her from hating me. Yes, She means that much.

I will be updating my story here, while i update my training to let you know how go. And of course, again, thanks for your support.